Tag: mum
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Hot afternoon
I keep walking outside of the hostel, enjoying hot weather and nice area around me but I keep thinking I should be with mum. That’s of course impossible due to Covid. The annoying thing is that number of infections is really low in the entire country. I guess it’s just a precaution but why now, […]
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Not seeing things from other people perspective
That’s why it’s sometimes being said we don’t have empathy. But I know it’s not true. When I see my mum, so small in her hospital bed, I can see how vulnerable she is and I want to protect her. But when I first found out she had an accident I didn’t speak with her […]
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Love mum
I arranged the transport for monday 11am and I can go with mum. I can’t wait to see her, I hope she will be happy in her new place. I keep thinking how vulnerable she is now and how much I want to protect her. Nothing else matters now. Forget the money, we’ll all cope […]
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Zopiclone
I took zopiclone at 11 and woke up at 4am feeling anxious. It is enormous responsibility to move mum to a place that we have to pay for if I know that funds are limited. Something happened yesterday in relation to her current care home, that made me realise that the nurses are not necessarily […]
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Private care home
The private care home looked a bit like a hotel, slightly over the top and much better than any care home I’ve ever seen in the UK (and I’ve seen a few). I was slightly reluctant after seeing that and also it’s in the middle of nowhere, but then I guess that’s how they all […]
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Nightime anxiety
I woke up feeling that I had it all sorted when then suddenly realised my mum was victim of fraud and her bank completely ignored her so far. Even the last letter, when they said they would refund what she had confirmation for didn’t include any information that there is ongoing police investigation. I feel […]
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Feeling hopeless
What if I don’t go back, my benefits will get stop and then my mum runs out of money for her care home. But even if I want to, I can’t go back on time, fast trains to Kraków don’t operate for a couple of days. I won’t manage, if I have to travel on […]
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Two nurses
I spoke with two nurses from mum’s care home and they both told me I don’t necessarily need to move mum, she’ll have a good care where she is and her money can be spent later on something. But I feel bad about keeping it. It’s not mine. I can’t spend it knowing my mum […]
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18.25 – I called mum!
I got enough courage today to call my mum. I felt really strange after I last tried to speak with her and she wasn’t replying. Plus I didn’t know what to tell her about everything. Mum was really alert, which is obviously good. She wanted to know the truth about my brother so I said […]
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14.55 – keep walking, you may get somewhere one day
I left the hostel at 9.20 to get to the police station by 10. Only during my investigation two other people called regarding the same case. The policeman said that if bank don’t take responsibility this may take more than a year to sort out. Police station is close to my mum’s care home so […]
Autistic and me 