Tag: emotions
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I’m cleaning
After deciding to take an Ukrainian refugee I am surprised to feel like I gained some control of the situation. Which is obviously not true, the situation of the people of Ukraine will be exactly the same, but I feel better, so that is something. Today it was actually the first time when I cried…
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It was a difficult day
I think my emotions finally woke up and I find it difficult to manage them. I mean, I’d probably look perfectly normal to you, as an autistic person at least – I spent almost entire day playing my block sudoku game. I’m quite scared of putting it away, I think it may be because, when…
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Am I happy or unhappy? (Trying to coach myself)
As I’m thinking about ways to turn my blog into a full time job, I had a look at various coaching methods and took advantage of some free trainings. It seemed to me that they were all based on the ‘mindset’ principle, so basically if you believe it will happen, it will happen. I didn’t…
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My dream
I had a dream that I came to the care home to collect mum for leave. It took a while to get her meds right and I watched TV news while waiting, where I found out that my cousin, who is a nurse, was taken to employment tribunal by her employer for being disrespectful to…
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I feel overwhelmed and depressed
Yesterday Ashley Peterson, the mental health blogger I follow and who used to comment a lot on my posts during the beginning of my ‘blogging career’ posted that she may be going to the hospital. She didn’t elaborate on this. It is my understanding, obviously, it is due to her depression getting really bad and…
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How I really feel?
I noticed the last couple of days that my blog posts become significantly shorter. I seem to stop analysing my feelings. And in fact I don’t feel that drama in my chest that I used to feel when things didn’t go according to plan. So if I don’t feel drama, I don’t need to post…
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Hairstyling adventures (how I proved that I have empathy)
Ok, so I went for a haircut today. There is this place in the centre of Swindon where ladies can get a haircut for 14 pounds only, and it’s really sensible one, so I always go there. Also, as my hair is naturally wavy and it’s doing it’s own thing it seems to me like…
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This is post 500
View this post on Instagram A post shared by Magda Regula (@magda_regula) The above is my Redecor design from this morning. It’s really cute with this painting, wouldn’t you agree? Ok, you probably wouldn’t, I get it. As I say about most of my Redecor designs, I wouldn’t want to live there but it would…
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Autism and emotions – Purple Ella
I just found this video made by Purple Ella, an autism advocate and entrepreneur. I find it very interesting when Ella said that when she feels negative emotions she needs to find a problem and will attribute this problem to that emotion and then tries to deal with this problem. It’s interesting that Ella knows…
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There will be no future
That’s how I feel right now – again. It’s 4.40am and it’s Monday. I only just woke up, after having a strange, disturbing dream: I visited my family home and, as I was walking through it, I felt that depressing energy that was trying to suck me in. It was like two black holes, one…
Autistic and me 