Tag: emotions
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My dream
I had a dream that I came to the care home to collect mum for leave. It took a while to get her meds right and I watched TV news while waiting, where I found out that my cousin, who is a nurse, was taken to employment tribunal by her employer for being disrespectful to […]
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I feel overwhelmed and depressed
Yesterday Ashley Peterson, the mental health blogger I follow and who used to comment a lot on my posts during the beginning of my ‘blogging career’ posted that she may be going to the hospital. She didn’t elaborate on this. It is my understanding, obviously, it is due to her depression getting really bad and […]
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How I really feel?
I noticed the last couple of days that my blog posts become significantly shorter. I seem to stop analysing my feelings. And in fact I don’t feel that drama in my chest that I used to feel when things didn’t go according to plan. So if I don’t feel drama, I don’t need to post […]
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Hairstyling adventures (how I proved that I have empathy)
Ok, so I went for a haircut today. There is this place in the centre of Swindon where ladies can get a haircut for 14 pounds only, and it’s really sensible one, so I always go there. Also, as my hair is naturally wavy and it’s doing it’s own thing it seems to me like […]
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This is post 500
View this post on Instagram A post shared by Magda Regula (@magda_regula) The above is my Redecor design from this morning. It’s really cute with this painting, wouldn’t you agree? Ok, you probably wouldn’t, I get it. As I say about most of my Redecor designs, I wouldn’t want to live there but it would […]
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Autism and emotions – Purple Ella
I just found this video made by Purple Ella, an autism advocate and entrepreneur. I find it very interesting when Ella said that when she feels negative emotions she needs to find a problem and will attribute this problem to that emotion and then tries to deal with this problem. It’s interesting that Ella knows […]
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There will be no future
That’s how I feel right now – again. It’s 4.40am and it’s Monday. I only just woke up, after having a strange, disturbing dream: I visited my family home and, as I was walking through it, I felt that depressing energy that was trying to suck me in. It was like two black holes, one […]
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I’m back to being myself
My ‘being anonymous’ experiment lasted for almost a week and I don’t think I liked it. It shows though that I have no ability to predict how I will feel in a new situation. I went anonymous because it was suggested as a solution to my workplace problems by two ladies in my autism group. […]
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I’m going anonymous
It has been a terribly difficult decision but I guess it’s what I have to do for now. I’m scared that my aptitude to writing the truth will cost me my job. It is difficult to say whether it’s true or not, but I guess, if I’m scared that means I need to take my […]
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I can’t tell anybody that I miss my mum
That’s how I feel now: I would like to call mum and tell her that I miss her after she died. Sorry, I really do not like the ‘passed away’ expression, it seems to me like this term suggests that she’s going to come back. I try to use it, but when I really miss […]
Autistic and me 