Tag: communication
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Night watchman and me
A few days ago, since I’m the only guest in the hostel, I realised there is a night watchman coming at 10pm. Well, realised is probably not the right word as the receptionist told me about him but the way she said that made me think… oh well, it looks like I’m jumping to conclusion. […]
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Isolation of victim
A few weeks ago I posted to Tomaszów Facebook group asking if there is anyone there who’s money also got stolen by Mrs J but I didn’t get a sensible response. A man reached out claiming he can help me get the money back and he said that ‘his neighbour is a lawyer’. I decided […]
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The Innocent Guys
I did mention in my previous post that since I started blogging about my emotions I started seeing flashback of text in my head occasionally and it’s something that relates to my life. ‘The Innocent Guys’ is what I saw just a few minutes ago. I suppose it could be a good name for vegan […]
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Struggling
Trigger warning: this post mentions suicidal thoughts. I read online that talking about suicidal thoughts doesn’t make people any more likely to act on them but I know some readers prefer trigger warning, and that’s absolutely fine. So I was really struggling mentally and emotionally, walking up early in the morning and feeling like I’m […]
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My problems are not ‘real’ problems
That’s how I often feel when I speak with people openly about what I’m going through. I now think it could be because I don’t communicate my emotions with my face expression and possibly don’t look authentic when I talk about some of my deepest problems. I must say I don’t really have that issue […]
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Possibly I didn’t misinterpret…
The problem with discovering I am autistic is that I doubt my own judgement. I don’t know what to do about it. I suppose at times I misinterpret things, but not all the time, I don’t think. I just heard the same lady who said she came here to have a rest. She was shouting […]
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I forgot to keep playing
Yesterday I was fairly busy during the day so I didn’t go to see mum. I don’t know if I explained that her new care home is a few kilometres away from town, in the middle of nowhere? I could have probably gone towards the afternoon but I remember how tired and quiet she was […]
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Is my mum hinting me? Detailed explanation
First of all I do apologise for my messy drawing. I suppose not using pen and paper every day has its impact on me. In here I wanted to explain in detail how I understand my mum’s comment ‘I want to live in Poland, unless that’s not possible then I go back to yours’. When […]
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Don’t ask me direct questions please
It is normally said that autistics are bad communicators but when I spoke with my diagnostician, Oriana Morrison-Clarke, I always knew straight away what she wanted and I was willing to do that. I felt like she was a whisperer, I’m not exaggerating. I find it all very strange, it’s obvious for me that Oriana […]
Autistic and me 