Tag: autism characteristics
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I have a need to be abandoned
Yesterday I asked John what he thinks about my ‘meeple quest theory’, which, I believe is the reason for him cutting our dates short: he sees himself as being based in his house and coming for a date with me is a quest that he completes. As hanging around for social reasons doesn’t make sense…
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Secret life of meeples
Normally I am ok with being on my own. Sometimes when John comes over I can still spend an hour or two doing my patterns. I’m actually quite happy with him being in the same room without much interaction, I think I may sometimes prefer it. I’d like him to be around more though, but…
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The last meeting with my nurse
So I saw my psychiatric nurse the last time yesterday. I gave her that basic card and small box of Polish chocolates. On the card I wrote this message: Thank you for all the support I received from you. I will always remember your kindness and dedication. Good luck in your new job. Kindness and…
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A Magda shaped hole
This is an authentic email I received yesterday. A good piece of creative writing, I would say. A Magda shaped hole? I’d never think neurotypicals could come up with anything like that. Enterpreneurs Circle is a club for business owners in the UK, that I joined a year ago when I was trying to go…
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Why autistic men are so stubborn sometimes?
Mind you, this is just a theory. It’s about my fiancé, John, refusing to tell me that he was working on his communication skills over the last couple of months, even though that refusal was so distressing to me that at some point I was worried that I’d end up psychotic again. (Mind you, I…
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John changed subconsciously
So finally I decided that I have no other choice but to accept this version of events. I also realised something, in case you asked: why I didn’t mention to John earlier I noticed a change in his communication, if it’s been going on since beginning of February? I think the main reason is that…
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I set up another Gmail account
To better communicate with John. Well, I suppose that sounds confusing for you… One good thing about realising I’m autistic is understanding that I don’t ‘get attracted to men who have issues’, their issues have no impact on whether I choose them or not. Moreover, I’m not aware of them at all when we just…
Autistic and me 