Tag: autism characteristics
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I’m feeling very tired
I did 12h shift yesterday and 6h early shift today. I didn’t get enough sleep yesterday as it was difficult for me to relax after coming home and today I had to wake up early. So in total I had probably 5h of sleep last night. Yet, I’m still coping. I’m in the middle of…
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Managing my emotions
As I said in my previous post I used to be interested in managing my emotions a lot in the past. Not that I noticed it brought me any benefits. At the same time I learned already that denying having difficult emotions is going to make me feel worse. Have anyone heard about emotional intelligence…
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My first fasting day
It’s 21.20 now and I will be going to sleep pretty soon. My first fasting day went well, I’m really pleased with myself. I managed to do grocery shopping and the fact that I’m fasting didn’t affect my food choices. Also, which is exactly the same experience I had when I first tried fasting when…
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How I marked my mum’s funeral day
I had two naps today for around 4h in total. I wonder if dr Guy Meadows, the founder of Sleep School would be proud of me, or would he feel shocked and devastated? He could be proud because for such a long time sleeping when I was under stress was almost impossible and having a…
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Guide on how to escape from yourself
I mentioned here before that since I started blogging, I sometimes see words in my head like if they were typed up. Those words seem to describe situation that I am in and appear when I’m under stress. It doesn’t happen very often, but it happened again today. Only that the word ‘yourself’ was not…
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I don’t know how I feel
This is apparently normal for us, autistics. I mean, not that I never know how I feel: when I’m upset, I’m usually perfectly aware of that. But now I’m really confused. Not only I don’t know how I feel, I also don’t know how I’m ‘supposed’ to feel. Perhaps my confusion is caused by years…
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My Sunday
I still feel reasonably calm, considering what is happening and I also managed to sleep OK last night, the same like the last couple of nights. It was six hours only, which is not a lot since I started using Sleep School app but considering what I am going through and the fact I didn’t…
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Should we behave normally when we’re in danger?
Today YouTube recommended me that strange song that lyrics I couldn’t even understand, except of the few words that really draw my attention: ‘it ends in prison or with funerals’. That got me feel scared again. I realised the neighbour who helped my brother organise mum’s funeral mentioned something about family graveyard, that it may…
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If you can’t cope with people…
I forgot to write about this little but pleasant experience. Two days ago when I felt really bad, one of the interia designers I follow on Instagram published a photo from what looked like a small garden party. There were quite a few people on it, all facing the camera and smiling. It was so…
Autistic and me 