Tag: autism characteristics
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Other people have the same experience as me? (I like Boris)
I still can’t wrap my head around what happened yesterday. There is a very strong Polish community in Swindon and I used to be in touch with them for a bit, I even was a teacher in Polish Saturday School for a year. I’m not doing anything with them now but I have them on…
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What is my plan for the radio program?
So tomorrow I’m going to our local radio station called Swindon 105.5. The manager told me that she wants to talk about ‘plan’. But I don’t have any! I thought, if my program is going to be 5 to 10 minutes long plan is not necessary, I’ll just talk about things that I have already…
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Coping with unexpected events
I read an article today about an autistic girl who just started school and her mum asked the teacher to always explain to that girl at the beginning of the day what is going to happen, so that she doesn’t have to cope with unexpected events as those are stressing her out. And I thought,…
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I’m tired (again)
I really wonder what that is. I keep getting tired a lot for quite a while now. I wish to know if that can be due to peri menopause? Or maybe I’m just tired of constant change? There’s been so much of it since pretty much when I got discharged from the hospital in January…
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I had a bath
And I feel a bit better. I am hoping that I will be able to sleep tonight without olanzapine again. I do not feel too triggered, thank god, but I am not totally calm either. I finally realised I cannot go to Poland and also, that possibly I need my sick note extended. It’s a…
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Learning to say no to opportunities
A few weeks ago, after I drafted my speech ‘Other people perspective’ (the password is Smardzewice, if you want to read it) I emailed it to a lady from one of Swindon charities that used to provide me with advocacy after I got out of psychiatric hospital at the beginning of 2020. Although I didn’t…
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I’m cleaning
After deciding to take an Ukrainian refugee I am surprised to feel like I gained some control of the situation. Which is obviously not true, the situation of the people of Ukraine will be exactly the same, but I feel better, so that is something. Today it was actually the first time when I cried…
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Should I take a refugee?
I’ve been thinking, maybe when (and if) I go to Poland, I should find an Ukrainian refugee to bring back with me? I would need to tidy up the spare room, but it’s not too bad and I recently got rid of a massive armchair from there, that wasn’t very comfortable to sit on, so…
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Excitement equals danger
I’ve never been good at dealing with excitement. Or, to be precise, every time I feel excitement I ruin everything about the thing that excites me. It is very easy to say it’s self sabotage and, again, explain that it’s because I don’t believe I deserve good things happening to me (exactly what my counsellor…
Autistic and me 