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  • My mum always wanted to help

    Mum doesn’t understand how things work in modern society. Once, I remember, she gave me her ID card asking to go to her bank to ask about something, but I was not authorised to have access to her account. She didn’t understand that, she thought having her ID card will be enough. But she always […]

    Magda Z.

    August 25, 2021
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  • My mum used to live with me, in the UK

    My mum used to take those meds called clonazepan, they’re strong tranquillisers. None of us knew they can cause shaking and having difficulties with finding the right words. She looked like she had beginning stages of Alzheimer or possibly Lewy body dementia. She actually was in psychiatric hospital for a bit at some point, the […]

    Magda Z.

    August 25, 2021
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  • Sudden understanding

    The fact that I’m suddenly not able to see mum any more made me realise that this is what is going to happen one day: I will think that she’s still here, but she won’t be. And I can’t take her with me. I need to learn how to say goodbye. She needs to stay […]

    Magda Z.

    August 25, 2021
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  • No more visits at mum’s

    When I was doing the online training, connection went off after the first break so I decided I’m going to see mum. I went there only to find out that visits in all care homes and hospitals in Poland has been suspended. I was allowed to see her very briefly, left her the glasses and […]

    Magda Z.

    August 24, 2021
    Uncategorized
    mum, Poland
  • Heavy rain

    It’s raining heavily today again so no point going to town. The clothes I was wearing yesterday are still wet. Tumble dryers are completely unknown here, unless something changed just recently. I stopped playing Redecor when I’m here. At first I had some issues with internet connection – I use data roaming on my mobile […]

    Magda Z.

    August 24, 2021
    Uncategorized
  • More sleep

    I managed to get another 3h of sleep but woke up with a headache and the same strange pressure around the heart that I used to get every morning for several months after I went off pregabalin. It was never confirmed by doctors this was from pregabalin withdrawal, more over they didn’t seem to know […]

    Magda Z.

    August 24, 2021
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  • Woke up early

    I went to sleep just after 22.30 and woke up before 2am. That’s not a lot of sleep, but should be ok in terms of my mental health (my two psychotic episodes were inducted by stress and insomnia.) Strange that I don’t feel tired at all. It would still be nice to sleep now. It’s […]

    Magda Z.

    August 24, 2021
    Uncategorized
    coping, mental health, psychosis
  • Never say that to psychiatric patient with Asperger’s

    When I was in psychiatric hospital after my second psychotic episode I asked the staff what is going to happen with me if I don’t get better and he said ‘Just take your medication’. For me that sounded like if he was telling me to take an overdose. Of course I knew that’s not what […]

    Magda Z.

    August 23, 2021
    Uncategorized
    communication, mental health, psychosis
  • My mum

    I feel sad again, being at home without my mum. I wish I could spend more time with her, do stuff like we used to. Maybe make pierogi. She was quite a good cook, not appreciated by anyone in the house really. I believe she deserves better life that she had and I can’t do […]

    Magda Z.

    August 23, 2021
    Uncategorized
    mum
  • Knitted socks

    I’m absolutely freezing after getting wet earlier but I found some knitted socks in the house, they’re not woolen but they’re quite thick. I have issues with cold, it can apparently be autism related. It takes ages for me to get warm after being in a cold. Sometimes I may lay next to a heater […]

    Magda Z.

    August 23, 2021
    Uncategorized
    coping
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