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The neighbour
On the way back from the lake I met my neighbour on the street, the same neighbour who was helping me to get my brother up the other day. She told me not to transfer my share of the property here to my brother. She said, what may then happen will be, it can be…
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Walk to the lake
I had a walk to the lake and got an ice cream there. It was rather chilly when I was leaving the house and then suddenly got quite hot. That’s what we used to do with mum when I was at home for the weekend and the weather was nice: having a walk to the…
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Smoked mackerel
I went to the shop to get some food for the weekend and saw some smoked mackerel. I wanted to buy one as those from Polish shop in Swindon are not excellent, but then I thought, the fridge is disconnected, we’re not going to eat it quickly enough. It’s just over a week since I…
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Hindsight
I sometimes think I didn’t deal with my mum very well when she was staying with me. Possibly I should have asked the doctor for some antidepressants for her, but I didn’t really know how to direct the attention to her mental health. She has some issues with medication, almost everything seems to make her…
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Feeling tired
I suddenly feel like I need a good rest and to relax. It’s good that I stopped pacing and laid down. I’m thinking how my brother is never abusive towards me, but he was to my mum. But I don’t tell him ‘you have to stop drinking, sort yourself out, why you’re not like other…
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I slept well
I was worried I’d run out of my sleeping tablets but had a good sleep without one last night. Possibly I should sent mum to the private care home for a few months, to build up her fitness, and then just see what happens. Maybe she’ll like being there and understand that the money she…
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Smardzewice again
I feel a bit better after spending the day out of the house and doing things. My mind is clearer, however I’m not sure this is the type of clarity I was looking for: I realised that by keeping my mum in a care home I don’t solve the real problem, and the real problem…
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On the way back from Łódź
So I saw The Friend today. It did help me a bit, both talking to her but also being away. I still feel overwhelmed that I have to make all the decisions myself. I almost feel that I’d prefer if my mum didn’t have any money left. We’d cope somehow, like we used to before…
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Hip replacement?
I checked online what are symptoms of needing hip replacement and falling doesn’t seem to be one of them.
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Priceless
On my way back home, just several meters away I found my brother laying on the side of the road. He claimed he can’t get up because of his bad hip but when me and a neighbour helped him, he was able to eventually stand straight and walk independently. Very strange. How do I know…
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