Autistic and me

brother, mum

Private care home

The private care home looked a bit like a hotel, slightly over the top and much better than any care home I’ve ever seen in the UK (and I’ve seen a few). I was slightly reluctant after seeing that and also it’s in the middle of nowhere, but then I guess that’s how they all […]

Magda Z.

infinite games, mum

Finite games and suicidal thoughts

I managed to make a mental leap finally, the same that I did when I realised that my interview is going to be published in two weeks, and I even managed to get some more sleep. It’s 7.48am now. But when I woke up I realised that it was just my brain playing the finite […]

Magda Z.

infinite games

99 posts only

It’s such a shame, I really like this website builder, but why it allows 99 posts only? Even if I posts once every 3-4 days, I’d run out within a year. (This is regarding my previous website, before I moved to wordpress). It took me ages to choose this website builder, as it turned out […]

Magda Z.

infinite games

Nightime anxiety

I woke up feeling that I had it all sorted when then suddenly realised my mum was victim of fraud and her bank completely ignored her so far. Even the last letter, when they said they would refund what she had confirmation for didn’t include any information that there is ongoing police investigation. I feel […]

Magda Z.

fraud, mum

Feeling hopeless

What if I don’t go back, my benefits will get stop and then my mum runs out of money for her care home. But even if I want to, I can’t go back on time, fast trains to Kraków don’t operate for a couple of days. I won’t manage, if I have to travel on […]

Magda Z.

mum

Deadline

Now I want to be back on Thursday, no matter what. At least this would be like a deadline and I think I may need it. I’m not sure if the new care home allows visists. I forgot to ask. If it does, I could stay a bit longer, I really need some time one […]

Magda Z.

coping

Universal credit

So I had my UC appointment and found out that if I’m out of the country for over 28 days my claim will be stopped. It doesn’t seem very fair, if I went to sort out the same situation to another town in the UK my benefits wouldn’t be stopped, so I’m not treated equally […]

Magda Z.

coping, unemployment

Two nurses

I spoke with two nurses from mum’s care home and they both told me I don’t necessarily need to move mum, she’ll have a good care where she is and her money can be spent later on something. But I feel bad about keeping it. It’s not mine. I can’t spend it knowing my mum […]

Magda Z.

fraud, mum

11.30am – can’t go this way

So I went to Piotrków Trybunalski to check my mum’s bank account as power of attorney has already been registered. So the good thing is no more money has been stolen, mum has enough for 4 years of a private care home (if I add her pension) but POA doesn’t allow me to use online […]

Magda Z.