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Money for food
My brother asked me if I can give him some money for food for the house. It was a bit strange as it was me who was buying food so far, so it made me think,what he would eat if I wasn’t in (although I presume he ate something outside of the house too during…
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I think I’m depressed
I didn’t even properly leave the bed. Only went to the kitchen for breakfast and lunch. I’m in some kind of half asleep state and I have no hope. But I don’t even know what the hope could be for. There’s nothing waiting for me in this life, I don’t think so. I don’t even…
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It’s hard to imagine, I know
It is said that people with Asperger’s can’t imagine how others are feeling and what to say to make them feel better. But then, it was my neurotypical colleague who used to say that the problems that I have with my mum are not real problems, because her mum had Alzheimer’s and taking care of…
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I’m not doing this
I’m fed up, I’m not going to deal with anything at all. My mum has her glasses now and a moisturiser so it’s not like I’m a bad daughter. I wish to say that if I leave my brother will have no choice but to deal with things, but he won’t. Can I just book…
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Waiting for miracle
I spent another couple of hours in bed just wishing for things to be different. And I don’t even mean perfect, I am fully aware that my family is far from normal and perfect is too much to aim for. I just want them to be a bit better than they are now. First of…
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Difficult feelings
I woke up early in the morning with the thought that if my mum ends up in the care home permanently, I’ll never forgive my brother. Not that our relationship is good now, so it will probably not change anything and he won’t even notice. My mum could of course live in a small, rented…
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Ridiculous
I’m thinking, how ridiculous this situation is. Normally when an elderly relative has money (although I don’t know how much is left after the fraud), everyone wants to help them. In my mum’s situation my brother is totally ignoring her. He could have used the situation when she’s in the care home to go and…
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The fraud
I hope, when I get to mum’s bank after I get power of attorney, it will turn out that all her money got missing. If there’s nothing left, I wouldn’t need to do anything. I’d just organise the rest of her pension, that she has left, to get transferred to the care home, so that…
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Honesty
I do admit, I’m angry with my mum. I told her multiple times not to leave the UK without me, but she got totally obsessed with coming back to Smardzewice, so shortly after quarantine was lifted for travellers who are vaccinated I booked her the flight ticket and arranged for transport to the airport. I…
Autistic and me 