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I want proper dinner
I just started feeling hungry. I’m not really eating much now, there’s no food in the house, my brother disconnected the fridge a while ago to save electricity. I decided I won’t be using it too because he’d start expecting I don’t know what in that fridge, but it means I’m playing the same game […]
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In bed
I miss Redecor a bit but don’t feel like it’s the right time now to focus on the game. I finally start feeling that I’m on the right track, even though I don’t know where I’m going exactly. I don’t know if I need to go to town tomorrow or not. I’ll decide in the […]
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Pacing
I somehow started feeling a relief. Still don’t know what to do next, or at least not exactly but I think being unable to see mum is allowing me to think more clearly. She’d definitely say no to a private care home, she’ll probably even say no to the one that she’s in now and […]
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Spoke with my brother
He’s not sure if he wants my share of the house. He’ll tell me tomorrow. He’s drunk and claims he’s ‘one level above everyone else’, whatever that could mean. He said again that mum has to be back home, even if she’s in the wheelchair and I decide to come back to the UK. He’ll […]
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Solicitor agreed to come to the care home
Which is good. I also asked about how to transfer my share of the house to my brother and I was asked if I’d also like to transfer my mum’s share to him. Well, she’ll never be able to go back there, I don’t think so, but how do I tell her? Although it would […]
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Hopeless
It feels to me today like if there’s no hope. To sort out mum’s fraud issue I need power of attorney and the solicitor may not want to come to the care home due to the new restrictions. Even if he agrees to come I was told we’d have to stay in the hallway. And […]
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My mum always wanted to help
Mum doesn’t understand how things work in modern society. Once, I remember, she gave me her ID card asking to go to her bank to ask about something, but I was not authorised to have access to her account. She didn’t understand that, she thought having her ID card will be enough. But she always […]
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My mum used to live with me, in the UK
My mum used to take those meds called clonazepan, they’re strong tranquillisers. None of us knew they can cause shaking and having difficulties with finding the right words. She looked like she had beginning stages of Alzheimer or possibly Lewy body dementia. She actually was in psychiatric hospital for a bit at some point, the […]
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Sudden understanding
The fact that I’m suddenly not able to see mum any more made me realise that this is what is going to happen one day: I will think that she’s still here, but she won’t be. And I can’t take her with me. I need to learn how to say goodbye. She needs to stay […]
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No more visits at mum’s
When I was doing the online training, connection went off after the first break so I decided I’m going to see mum. I went there only to find out that visits in all care homes and hospitals in Poland has been suspended. I was allowed to see her very briefly, left her the glasses and […]
Autistic and me 