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Gratitude practice doesn’t work
Some people swear by it. And possibly it works for them, I don’t know. There were even some research stating that it actually does work. I don’t know how psychological research of this kind can be done without taking into consideration people values, beliefs, life circumstances and life experience. I did try and at first […]
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Monitoring (and I don’t mind CCTV)
This thing that I’m going to talk about here again should, from technical point of view, have it’s own tag on my blog, but it’s the thing that I don’t want to talk about too openly so I didn’t create one. I still have some readers so possibly they remember how I believed that I […]
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Being more British
A few days ago I had this situation with a Chinese looking lady on a bus that made me think whether I should try to be more British. I was sat in an aisle seat when that lady, age around 60, came up and asked for the window seat. There were a few aisle seats […]
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The beauty of an empty mind
I’m not sure how I’m going to keep the blog going, although does that really matter when no one really reads it. My mind is totally empty, I’m not sure if it’s olanzapine or the fact I’m now focused on my studies or a bit of both, but I don’t have any content in my […]
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Autism and gratitude
Do you think it would be a good idea to start practicing gratitude? I’ve been thinking recently again about the fact that when we, autistics, focus so heavily on explaining our difficulties to the world, we end up being rather negative. ‘I’m not good with speaking on the phone’, ‘I’m oversensitive to noise’, ‘I’m a […]
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I don’t want to focus on any external stimuli today
As you may be aware I decided not to meet John today. I don’t know what it is exactly: side effect of medication, side effect of psychosis, laziness, low motivation, trying to save up all the mental energy for going back to work next week or just me being my autistic self, but I feel […]
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Freedom of speech
As I mentioned in my last post, my statistics are really poor lately, they are probably even worse than when I just started blogging but I still have some views on most of the days. As I was thinking about it I realised I am actually looking forward to that moment when I loose all […]
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Dementia treatment dream
Yesterday evening I decided that I shouldn’t be sleeping on the sofa too often and went to the spare bedroom. I only slept around 9h and woke up with a headache, one that I usually get when I’m about to have a cold. I got a bit annoyed, after all this time I was off […]
Autistic and me 