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I wish for an ordinary day
You know what, I’m seriously fed up with all those Bank Holidays, which is how days free of normal working patterns are called in the UK. First of all I don’t understand the word ‘bank’ – where does it come from, I have no idea. Moreover, no one who I asked had any idea either. […]
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On being normal
Ok, that will be a quick post – let’s hope. I was feeling a bit funny the last couple of days again, which I believe was caused by me trying to work out how to work with visual patterns. I believe psychotic state is when we focus on patterns too much and miss their meaning […]
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I’m such a lucky girl!
After publishing my last post – that one about punishment – it was brought to my attention that possibly what I am describing (recognising punishment where there is none) is not caused by my ability to recognise patterns but by my difficult childhood experiences. I’d like to discuss that further here. I did mention here […]
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Merry Christmas
For us, Polish, the main Christmas celebration is today, even though the days you get off work are the same like everywhere else: 25th and 26th of December. I have an idea for a post about why I don’t think punishment should be used for autistic people (kids), even if based on ‘natural consequences’ but […]
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Mulled wine
I can see I didn’t post for a few days and, unfortunately, I think I may need to lower the frequency of my posts. In a way it’s easier to post every day than just once in a while, as that changes the focus: when I only post every couple days it’s like doing a […]
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Obsession continues
I woke up at 4am today, which was not extremely early as I went to sleep before 9am yesterday. I am, however, wondering, if I start doing my patterns that early in the morning, will I not teach my brain that waking me up early will bring a reward? I wonder if brain can plan […]
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My pursuit of patterns is making me unwell
Well, I really don’t know what happened to me the last couple of days. I become so obsessed with creating patterns of my Redecor designs that I started feeling I may be on the edge of psychosis. Thank god, I at least have the understanding that part of it is probably due to how my […]
Autistic and me 