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I got lucky twice!
It’s only been a few months ago since I realised that how I understand the concept of luck is probably quite different from other people: for me it’s not about the impact the event has, but about how unlikely it is. So if it’s something small, but very unlikely, and it’s positive, I consider myself…
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I feel numbed
I had my visit to the dentist and I was numbed, so I feel numbed. It’s a very smart sentence, isn’t it? I think I should feel lucky as the infection cleared off in both of the teeth that I was worried about. I didn’t know that is possible, I thought one day I’ll just…
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I feel overwhelmed and depressed
Yesterday Ashley Peterson, the mental health blogger I follow and who used to comment a lot on my posts during the beginning of my ‘blogging career’ posted that she may be going to the hospital. She didn’t elaborate on this. It is my understanding, obviously, it is due to her depression getting really bad and…
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I screamed at somebody
Ok, as much as I want to keep this blog fairly positive, I also want it to be realistic. Can I have both of those qualities or are they mutually exclusive? It is said that autistic people, or at least some of them, sometimes scream at others. And well… I am one of those people.…
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How I really feel?
I noticed the last couple of days that my blog posts become significantly shorter. I seem to stop analysing my feelings. And in fact I don’t feel that drama in my chest that I used to feel when things didn’t go according to plan. So if I don’t feel drama, I don’t need to post…
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I didn’t write anything about the war yet
It is difficult for me, you know? Poland and Ukraine are neighbours and Kiyv is a beautiful city – I never visited but my mum was there and she loved it. And this way the war reminds me of the fact that I’d never speak with my mum again. That I didn’t ask her about…
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Hairstyling adventures (how I proved that I have empathy)
Ok, so I went for a haircut today. There is this place in the centre of Swindon where ladies can get a haircut for 14 pounds only, and it’s really sensible one, so I always go there. Also, as my hair is naturally wavy and it’s doing it’s own thing it seems to me like…
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Quick update on my sleep
So yesterday I did a meditation from School Sleep app around lunch time and didn’t do any standard meditation (by standard meditation I mean this one where we’re supposed to force ourselves to relax). Later on I still found it difficult to drift off to sleep peacefully, even though I was tired, but I didn’t…
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How much clarification is too much?
That’s the problem with communication – you can never be sure what the other person means. And I must say I certainly get less confident about it since I realised I’m autistic, even though I can’t really remember many situations from the past when I misunderstood somebody, but still, it feels to me now that…
Autistic and me 