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The concept of ‘deserving’
It is said, that it’s us, autistics, who get social situations wrong. I wonder whether that extends to psychological and social concepts? But then, what about neurotypicals who seem to put how they feel above everything else, and especially above pure logic. Like this concept of ‘deserving’ good things in life. The events that I’d […]
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My dream
I had a dream that I came to the care home to collect mum for leave. It took a while to get her meds right and I watched TV news while waiting, where I found out that my cousin, who is a nurse, was taken to employment tribunal by her employer for being disrespectful to […]
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What is the difference between mental and physical tiredness?
The first time I came accross the term mental tiredness was when I started reading about autism. Only then I realised what I was going through every time when I had loads happening in my life: once in a while I had to spend an entire day in bed doing absolutely nothing and the next […]
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Love type D
I’m just watching the above film online and I still have an hour to go, but for now it’s absolutely hilarious. It’s strange that films that I never heard about can be so good, but those that are popular end up being boring and cliché for me. Do you think that has anything to do […]
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I got lucky twice!
It’s only been a few months ago since I realised that how I understand the concept of luck is probably quite different from other people: for me it’s not about the impact the event has, but about how unlikely it is. So if it’s something small, but very unlikely, and it’s positive, I consider myself […]
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I feel numbed
I had my visit to the dentist and I was numbed, so I feel numbed. It’s a very smart sentence, isn’t it? I think I should feel lucky as the infection cleared off in both of the teeth that I was worried about. I didn’t know that is possible, I thought one day I’ll just […]
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I feel overwhelmed and depressed
Yesterday Ashley Peterson, the mental health blogger I follow and who used to comment a lot on my posts during the beginning of my ‘blogging career’ posted that she may be going to the hospital. She didn’t elaborate on this. It is my understanding, obviously, it is due to her depression getting really bad and […]
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I screamed at somebody
Ok, as much as I want to keep this blog fairly positive, I also want it to be realistic. Can I have both of those qualities or are they mutually exclusive? It is said that autistic people, or at least some of them, sometimes scream at others. And well… I am one of those people. […]
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How I really feel?
I noticed the last couple of days that my blog posts become significantly shorter. I seem to stop analysing my feelings. And in fact I don’t feel that drama in my chest that I used to feel when things didn’t go according to plan. So if I don’t feel drama, I don’t need to post […]
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I didn’t write anything about the war yet
It is difficult for me, you know? Poland and Ukraine are neighbours and Kiyv is a beautiful city – I never visited but my mum was there and she loved it. And this way the war reminds me of the fact that I’d never speak with my mum again. That I didn’t ask her about […]
Autistic and me 