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I’m sticking to my values (I could still afford funeral plan)
Yesterday I had a phone call from a company that offers funeral plans. I don’t have one and normally I’d refuse to speak with them but after my mum died I think I become more aware of my own mortality so I thought I’d talk to them. It turned out the lowest monthly payment was […]
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I just realised something (the importance of indirect communication)
When I realised I’m autistic and that there are levels of communication that I don’t get, I started paying more attention to what is being said in non direct way. For that I didn’t need anyone to prompt me (I described here a while ago how my diagnostician prompted me to see other people perspectives). […]
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Should I learn to drive? (probably not)
I had this idea yesterday that it’s finally time to learn to drive. How I came up with that was probably because the only pattern I can see in lifes of successful people, who have something exciting going on for them, is that they are drivers. And, as I didn’t see any other pattern, it […]
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Trying to outsmart my brain
Seriously, this is getting annoying. I kind of managed to calm myself down yesterday by reading about those cell counting devices, but I was still alert till really late. I ended up having 2.5h of sleep, and I’m obviously very tired, but still I feel like my brain is doing ‘that’ to me. I mean, […]
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How is success achieved?
I spent over an hour reading through a peculiar website about equipment for ‘cell counting’. I didn’t really understand much, but I didn’t try to – it was just to see if reading through a material only to see a pattern is going to help me to calm down my brain. And it did, quite […]
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Excitement equals danger
I’ve never been good at dealing with excitement. Or, to be precise, every time I feel excitement I ruin everything about the thing that excites me. It is very easy to say it’s self sabotage and, again, explain that it’s because I don’t believe I deserve good things happening to me (exactly what my counsellor […]
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I’m allocating myself a reward
I’m on my way from the local radio station, and I must say the chat with the manager went really well. I will write more about it later, possibly even tomorrow, after I put things into perspective, but for now I wanted to say that I had a feeling like I want to allocate myself […]
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Is asking questions the answer to everything?
I just received a newsletter from one of the business coach I signed up for during the couple of last weeks. It was about the fact that people don’t like those who are ‘salesy’ and instead, if we want something from another business person we should ask questions. And I found it so terrible confusing! […]
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It was a difficult day
I think my emotions finally woke up and I find it difficult to manage them. I mean, I’d probably look perfectly normal to you, as an autistic person at least – I spent almost entire day playing my block sudoku game. I’m quite scared of putting it away, I think it may be because, when […]
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Am I happy or unhappy? (Trying to coach myself)
As I’m thinking about ways to turn my blog into a full time job, I had a look at various coaching methods and took advantage of some free trainings. It seemed to me that they were all based on the ‘mindset’ principle, so basically if you believe it will happen, it will happen. I didn’t […]
Autistic and me 