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Autism or borderline personality disorder?
I just read an article on Polish website about female who had mental health problems for several years before she received correct diagnosis. When I read that description I was convinced the diagnosis was autism, but not, it was borderline personality disorder. Mind you, I obviously have no idea what it is that she has,…
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My love of the gym came back
Bringing my own music to the gym was the trick I needed! Again, why didn’t I come up with that before? I often find myself in situations that I do something that works for me and I wonder why I didn’t try that before. It seems the only reason is that I always did things…
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‘Mum, I can’t come over now’
That’s what I was thinking today about my trip to Poland. That I wanted to tell mum that I won’t be coming due to the difficult situation there and I wanted to hear her say that that’s ok and she’ll cope. Those thoughts came to me a few times and every time it took me…
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I got called a troll today (refugees will get benefits)
I’m spending significant amount of time on Facebook groups dedicated to help refugees. I will continue my observation of British public and will keep posting what I’ve noticed. Today I saw a post from a lady who was upset because ‘her’ refugees changed their mind on the last minute and said they’re not coming. She…
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I think the news are set up
Do you think I’m getting psychotic for thinking that? I especially mean here the trip of Polish Prime Minister Mateusz Morawiecki and some other people to Kiev. It didn’t make much sense to me that they went there, there was nothing that they could do by going and were only exposing themselves to danger. But…
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Another thing I don’t understand (£350)
The British are currently arguing about the £350 that the government gives towards hosting Ukrainian refugees. Some of them are calling the government ‘shitty’ and claim it’s not enough. Obviously it’s not much, if they rent the room out privately they would get twice as much for two people (depending on the location) and some…
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I had a bath
And I feel a bit better. I am hoping that I will be able to sleep tonight without olanzapine again. I do not feel too triggered, thank god, but I am not totally calm either. I finally realised I cannot go to Poland and also, that possibly I need my sick note extended. It’s a…
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I want to be the breave one!
I still feel really panicky. It seems to me like two hostels bookings not working out is a sign that I should stay (notification) but at the same time I feel like I really want to go, to help my country and our neighbours who are stuck there. I know I won’t be able to…
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Feeling panicky about my trip tomorrow
A few hours ago I received email through Booking.com that my hostel reservation has been cancelled. The property called me a few minutes later to confirm and stated that they had a large group of students coming and are overbooked. That never happened to me before. I started thinking, whether, possibly they were told by…
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Learning to say no to opportunities
A few weeks ago, after I drafted my speech ‘Other people perspective’ (the password is Smardzewice, if you want to read it) I emailed it to a lady from one of Swindon charities that used to provide me with advocacy after I got out of psychiatric hospital at the beginning of 2020. Although I didn’t…
Autistic and me 