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Autistic is my new identity, I suppose
So I went to my surgery to ask how I can alter my medical file, thank god it wasn’t very busy. Both receptionists were very sweet. They listened to my explanation and added to my medical record that I don’t want to be identified as autistic. And then one of them said that she has […]
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I went back on Facebook
And do you think someone was waiting there for me? I don’t think so. I started making posts about finishing my life but because I wanted to sound friendly, polite, nonthreatening and indirect, it probably looked like I’m writing poetry. I really don’t know how to talk to people. How to tell them, when I […]
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News of the year
It will actually be a year in a few days since I got sacked. Now, guess what? That company found my CV on Indeed and they now want me back. This is too much to process at the moment, with all my diagnosis drama. I may need to go to the ice cream place later […]
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I don’t want to be autistic anymore
I asked my psychiatric nurse to add to my file that I don’t want to identify myself as autistic any more. Initially I wanted to ask her to get my diagnosis removed, but then I thought that would look like if I didn’t have it at all, and that would not be reflection of the […]
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My own little bubble
I was wondering recently about the issue of personal hygiene. Autistics may not be very good at that, although it was really confusing for me because I actually like taking showers. As long at the water is the right temperature and the right pressure, showers can be real sensory heaven. Yet, I have on and […]
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I decided to recover
As I mentioned probably yesterday, the fact that my psychiatrist prescribed only 7 olanzapine tablets, instead of usual 10, made me think that I must be recovering. Quite precisely, I achieved 30 percent recovery. Going further with that thought, I need to have 0 tablets to achieve 100 percent recovery. Which is what I currently […]
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What is a home worth?
1. I went on Zoopla yesterday just to see house prices, in case I wanted to move at some point. I mean, this is if I convince John to move to Swindon, if I don’t I’m staying where I am. On their website I saw that line of text: we know what a home is […]
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Carnations
1. I started wondering recently, does art has to be pretty? Some abstract art looks quite messy to me and I don’t particularly like that. I was so pleased with a couple of images I managed to create around a week ago, but since then my brain wants to create things that are more harsh […]
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I feel like a real content creator
1. It’s Saturday so John will be coming in the afternoon. We’re planning to play some more Dominion and all the other usual stuff. I miss him. It would be so nice if we could live together, but we may need a large house for that, we both have so much stuff! 2. It’s been […]
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I need a change of scenery
1. Me and John decided yesterday that it will be better if I don’t go to Poland for the time being. I am quite worried about the war in Ukraine, maybe not necessarily that Putin is going to attack other countries (although who knows with him? I wouldn’t count on him being logical and down […]
Autistic and me 