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The last meeting with my nurse
So I saw my psychiatric nurse the last time yesterday. I gave her that basic card and small box of Polish chocolates. On the card I wrote this message: Thank you for all the support I received from you. I will always remember your kindness and dedication. Good luck in your new job. Kindness and…
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A Magda shaped hole
This is an authentic email I received yesterday. A good piece of creative writing, I would say. A Magda shaped hole? I’d never think neurotypicals could come up with anything like that. Enterpreneurs Circle is a club for business owners in the UK, that I joined a year ago when I was trying to go…
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Human being in a bag
Yesterday I was chatting with John about the food festival we’re going to on Sunday. I reminded him to take his rucksack. I got it for him as we were getting ready to go on holiday to Poland a few years ago, long before Covid pandemic. I found that rucksack in a charity shop, but…
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Why autistic men are so stubborn sometimes?
Mind you, this is just a theory. It’s about my fiancé, John, refusing to tell me that he was working on his communication skills over the last couple of months, even though that refusal was so distressing to me that at some point I was worried that I’d end up psychotic again. (Mind you, I…
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John changed subconsciously
So finally I decided that I have no other choice but to accept this version of events. I also realised something, in case you asked: why I didn’t mention to John earlier I noticed a change in his communication, if it’s been going on since beginning of February? I think the main reason is that…
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Feeling compassionate (towards John and myself)
I told you that I started having the idea that I’m on speech and language therapy delivered by the community over a year ago. Probably March last year. It didn’t bother me at all, if anything I considered it fun. The people who were saying all those things that I later reported on my blog…
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A card for my psychiatric nurse (hidden meanings)
As you may know my psychiatric nurse will be leaving in a few days and my last appointment will be in two days time. Initially I was meant to be discharged, but my psychiatric team took under consideration my recent delusions that my fiancé works on his communication skills with my diagnostician and as a…
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I set up another Gmail account
To better communicate with John. Well, I suppose that sounds confusing for you… One good thing about realising I’m autistic is understanding that I don’t ‘get attracted to men who have issues’, their issues have no impact on whether I choose them or not. Moreover, I’m not aware of them at all when we just…
Autistic and me 