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Autism and gratitude
Do you think it would be a good idea to start practicing gratitude? I’ve been thinking recently again about the fact that when we, autistics, focus so heavily on explaining our difficulties to the world, we end up being rather negative. ‘I’m not good with speaking on the phone’, ‘I’m oversensitive to noise’, ‘I’m a…
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I don’t want to focus on any external stimuli today
As you may be aware I decided not to meet John today. I don’t know what it is exactly: side effect of medication, side effect of psychosis, laziness, low motivation, trying to save up all the mental energy for going back to work next week or just me being my autistic self, but I feel…
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Freedom of speech
As I mentioned in my last post, my statistics are really poor lately, they are probably even worse than when I just started blogging but I still have some views on most of the days. As I was thinking about it I realised I am actually looking forward to that moment when I loose all…
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Dementia treatment dream
Yesterday evening I decided that I shouldn’t be sleeping on the sofa too often and went to the spare bedroom. I only slept around 9h and woke up with a headache, one that I usually get when I’m about to have a cold. I got a bit annoyed, after all this time I was off…
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Me on olanzapine
I think I have been on it for long enough to write a little sum up. I am only on 5mg, which is considered a small dose. When I was on it the first time a few years ago it was 10mg. Even on 5mg I managed to sleep 10 hours on a couple of…
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I miss my mum (again)
I remember, I said a few days ago that I’m not grieving any more but I do miss her. She would be my best cheerleader, now when I’m studying at uni. I imagine that I call her and what she would say. She’d most likely would be like ‘that’s very good, that’s very good’. I…
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Unimpaired self recognition
I had like 8h long assignment related meltdown yesterday and eventually John told me off for not being flexible enough with my study. Basically I decided I’m not writing evidenced person centered care plan because if I have to provide evidence, that means the care plan is not person centered. But finally I thought, ok,…
Autistic and me 