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John said he missed me
And those two words made me feel like he really is on my side; like if he’s waiting for me to get better but not pushing for it. You see, communicating with a depressed autistic person is really not that difficult. He also said I may need to go to doctor. But I don’t want…
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To believe or not to believe?
I’m just reading ‘Dancing with Dementia’, a book by Christine Bryder, an author and advocate with young onset Alzheimer disease. Christine says at the beginning of the book that she asked her church group to pray for her shortly after her diagnosis and they did, they specifically decided to pray for her recovery. She was…
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Can I have some dopamine, please?
I keep trying to understand the role of dopamine in developing psychosis. Of course that is unlikely to happen as even scientists don’t understand the connection, they only assume dopamine causes psychosis. But if I’m on medication that reduces effects of dopamine in the brain and dopamine is responsible for brain reward system (at least…
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Saturday catch up (getting rid of my delusions)
Yes, yes, I know, I wrote a blog post yesterday. However. I thought ‘catch up’ is such a nice and innocent phrase. Do you know what is my most popular blog post so far? It’s this one: Is Boris Johnson autistic? 61 views so far. I told you, I’m not a very popular blogger. As…
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My unusual beliefs
I am perfectly aware that believing I’m on speech and language therapy delivered by the community is unusual, but what supports this theory is that I have almost no misunderstandings with people, or, to be precise, no misunderstandings that upset me, which was common a few years ago. Or is it possible, do you think,…
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Gratitude practice doesn’t work
Some people swear by it. And possibly it works for them, I don’t know. There were even some research stating that it actually does work. I don’t know how psychological research of this kind can be done without taking into consideration people values, beliefs, life circumstances and life experience. I did try and at first…
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Monitoring (and I don’t mind CCTV)
This thing that I’m going to talk about here again should, from technical point of view, have it’s own tag on my blog, but it’s the thing that I don’t want to talk about too openly so I didn’t create one. I still have some readers so possibly they remember how I believed that I…
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Being more British
A few days ago I had this situation with a Chinese looking lady on a bus that made me think whether I should try to be more British. I was sat in an aisle seat when that lady, age around 60, came up and asked for the window seat. There were a few aisle seats…
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The beauty of an empty mind
I’m not sure how I’m going to keep the blog going, although does that really matter when no one really reads it. My mind is totally empty, I’m not sure if it’s olanzapine or the fact I’m now focused on my studies or a bit of both, but I don’t have any content in my…
Autistic and me 