As I keep seeing that concept being mentioned over and over on various Facebook groups, I realised that after reading my previous posts some could decide I have it. And I really don’t agree with that.
Basically rejection sensitive dysphoria is when someone is oversensitive to rejection. It’s not a diagnosis so there’s no criteria to be met and I guess some people could say that the fact I focus on others rather than on myself means I have it.
But I focused on others on the radio show because otherwise I wouldn’t be able to have a normal conversation; if I focus on myself I’d rumble, talk nonsense or just run out of the studio in the middle of the sentence!
I did not feel rejected in the slightest. I felt scared because it was something totally new but I wasn’t scared of rejection.
I also mentioned to those two ladies before the show that I’m worried about talking too much. This is how I expressed my empathy towards them: I think I imagine other people think the same way I do and sometimes I just have this idea that some things need to be said, and I have to say them. So I was worried that by talking too much I’d disturb the order they have in their heads.
But maybe that’s not how neurotypicals think? I did hear they’re much more flexible in a conversation. But then, how do I know what that actually means?
Anyway, I really didn’t feel rejected in the slightest. If I decide to stop volunteering that would only be because I don’t know what to do with myself there. I could still stay in touch though and pop in from time to time, when I have something to say.