Trying to outsmart my brain

Seriously, this is getting annoying. I kind of managed to calm myself down yesterday by reading about those cell counting devices, but I was still alert till really late. I ended up having 2.5h of sleep, and I’m obviously very tired, but still I feel like my brain is doing ‘that’ to me. I mean, looking for patterns the entire time and getting annoyed when it cannot find any. I wonder whether this is a type of a brain damage? I suppose I was like that before my psychotic episodes too, but not to such extent!

I guess I may need to be on emergency olanzapine till the end of my life, which is obviously not too bad, but in a way I feel I would really like to have more control of my brain. I wonder if dr Meadows (the founder of Sleep School) theory on amygdala, I mean the statement that amygdala thinks we’re in danger when we make an effort to relax, would apply here? But then, what I’m supposed to do instead? I’m not in a state to do any meditation, I feel too triggered for that.

It looks like I’m performing psychiatric experiment on myself, doesn’t it?

And the reason for that is, yesterday I was offered my own program on the local radio. There was no way I expected that.

Ok, I’m off. It’s only 3pm. Possibly I’ll find a way to calm down by 8pm.

Magda Z.

March 8, 2022

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Adelaide Dupont

March 9, 2022 at 8:26 am

Offers have a way of activating us.

[even when we don’t want / aren’t able to be activated].

Is it the „getting annoyed” problem

or the „looking for patterns” problem?

And, yes, relaxing does affect some of the lower parts or the first-developed parts of the brain.

„Amy” [Steve Hein’s name for the amygdala – he wrote one of the first books for laypeople on Emotional Intelligence] does respond to threats and to social comparisons.

Of course the unexpected – even, as you have said, a „good” unexpected – activates the amygdala.

[Or perhaps you were less aware of your brain before your psychotic episodes and the habitual things it did]

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1. Magda Regula
  
  March 9, 2022 at 9:50 am
  
  Those are all good questions. I think I already forgot how I felt yesterday though!
  Perhaps I need to do the exercises from Sleep School on a regular basis, maybe that will calm my amygdala for good.
  
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  1. Adelaide Dupont
    
    March 9, 2022 at 10:17 am
    
    Ah yes – the whole sixty thousand thoughts – a hundred thousand thoughts phenomenon
    
    and how we’re only aware of 1 or 2 percent of them – if that.
    
    All the things you do on a regular basis – or some combination of the things – they affect your amygdala [and other connections between it and other parts of the brain].
    
    So the habits of mind you build with the Sleep School.
    
    And that is the key „I think I already forgot how I felt yesterday”.
    
    It may have left a trace or an element.
    
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  2. Magda Regula
    
    March 9, 2022 at 12:24 pm
    
    It is a bit difficult to recover from this state, but I think Sleep School meditation is helping.
    
    I’m going out in the evening to meet some new people from meet up group so I’d rather feel normal by then!
    
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