I spent over an hour reading through a peculiar website about equipment for ‘cell counting’. I didn’t really understand much, but I didn’t try to – it was just to see if reading through a material only to see a pattern is going to help me to calm down my brain.
And it did, quite a lot. But then, I realised something spectacular: people never discuss how they achieve success. It’s either ‘hard work’ without any more explanation, or modest ‘it just happened’ statement.
I only realised recently that people can get bullied into accepting a promotion. Did you know about that? If you’re neurotypical, you probably did. But I did not. I’ve heard some people say things like ‘I didn’t really want to be a manager’ but that never gets discussed any further. And yet, somehow, at 44, I realised that yes, one can get bullied to progress their career.
That will of course not be the same type of bullying I experienced in Home Group and, I assume, the bully will stop their questionable methods when they make the bullee (does that word even exist?) to be compliant. That’s the neurotypical world for you. Deal with it.
It makes perfect sense that things like that don’t get discussed. But then, that’s the result: I was offered an excellent opportunity to progress my career and I go mental now because I can’t see any pattern in what is happening. But I can’t see it because they’re not available anywhere, so I can’t compare my life events with anything I know. Perhaps someone could write some fairytales for autistic adults about it?
I guess ‘Devil wears Prada’ would be a good film for me to watch again, but the problem is, from what I remember, the main character leaves the job at the end, so that is not exactly an answer to my question.
Autistic and me 
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