I screamed at somebody

Ok, as much as I want to keep this blog fairly positive, I also want it to be realistic. Can I have both of those qualities or are they mutually exclusive?

It is said that autistic people, or at least some of them, sometimes scream at others. And well… I am one of those people. I’m not proud of it, by any means, but at the same time I rarely regret it. If anything, I regret that I didn’t come up with more sophisticated way of telling that person what I think of them. I also wouldn’t call that a meltdown as I always have the feeling that I’m in control of what I do. I can choose not to scream but I decide against it. I also never scream at people who I respect.

I’d probably benefit from learning how to be spiteful and manipulative instead so that I could use those skills instead. It would clearly be less embarrassing. Oh well…

Yes. I did scream at somebody today. I know it was not elegant but part of me says I should have done that ages ago. Well, yes… I definitely need to learn how to be a little bit spiteful. It will be good for me.

I will not say here who I screamed at but I will repeat once again: not anyone that I respect.

3 responses to “I screamed at somebody”

  1. Sometimes you gotta do what you gotta do. And I feel it’s a human trait – not just an autistic one ❤️💜❤️ My xhusband never listened to me unless I yelled. I could no longer live like that and fortunately do not today – however I had to yell sometimes.❤️💜❤️oh and I don’t respect him either 😬still

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