Ok, as much as I want to keep this blog fairly positive, I also want it to be realistic. Can I have both of those qualities or are they mutually exclusive?
It is said that autistic people, or at least some of them, sometimes scream at others. And well… I am one of those people. I’m not proud of it, by any means, but at the same time I rarely regret it. If anything, I regret that I didn’t come up with more sophisticated way of telling that person what I think of them. I also wouldn’t call that a meltdown as I always have the feeling that I’m in control of what I do. I can choose not to scream but I decide against it. I also never scream at people who I respect.
I’d probably benefit from learning how to be spiteful and manipulative instead so that I could use those skills instead. It would clearly be less embarrassing. Oh well…
Yes. I did scream at somebody today. I know it was not elegant but part of me says I should have done that ages ago. Well, yes… I definitely need to learn how to be a little bit spiteful. It will be good for me.
I will not say here who I screamed at but I will repeat once again: not anyone that I respect.