I downloaded a new game yesterday, one where you have to arrange various shape blocks in a certain way, and when you do, they disappear and you get points. I thought it would be a good way to relax and I spent ages playing yesterday evening and today in the morning, straight after I woke up at 4am.

I thought it would help me deal with frustration, but it didn’t, it only prevented me from thinking about it for as long as I played. The thing is also, I’m not very good at those type of games. I remember there was a similar one very popular with students where I used to live in the university dorm and I believe I was the worst at it. Two of my roommates (at different times, I didn’t live with both of them at once), could play it indefinitely and one used to ask me to finish it when she got bored and I’d manage to do that in like 3 minutes.

I bet it has something to do with me being autistic. That housemate used to say that I need to think about arranging blocks in more than one area at once, but I was sure, that was what I used to do! Yet, it was not good enough.

I used to start one game after another in hope to finally work it out but I never managed. So the game was starting to frustrate me at the end.

This time, I told myself, I need to delete it.

At least the letter to the bank is ready for printing. Hopefully, after I deliver it to the branch, I won’t be thinking about it any more for a little while.