On the way back from the lake I met my neighbour on the street, the same neighbour who was helping me to get my brother up the other day. She told me not to transfer my share of the property here to my brother. She said, what may then happen will be, it can be taken over due to unpaid bills, so it’s like she’s telling me I should be paying the bills for it. Because my brother won’t. But what motivation he will have for taking any responsibility?

I was worried I’d feel hyper and upset here a lot but instead I’m just confused and tired. It’s like nothing makes sense anymore to me and I stopped even trying to work the things out.

What would be best for my family? The best is not going to happen. What would be second best then? Probably if I get some sleep.