I went to the shop to get some food for the weekend and saw some smoked mackerel. I wanted to buy one as those from Polish shop in Swindon are not excellent, but then I thought, the fridge is disconnected, we’re not going to eat it quickly enough.

It’s just over a week since I came here and, to be honest, I didn’t do much. I need power of attorney to sort out the most important things, but partly also, I don’t know what to do, nothing is clear to me, I spend hours on end thinking about what’s best for our family and I came up with conclusion every time that it would be best if my brother stopped drinking. But I can’t make it happen and therefore I don’t know what my next step should be. Nothing makes sense any more to me.